whats what when its like what ??

Yes ! so freaking pissed off ! .. ah I need people who talk softly around me and not try to have a competition that who can scream loud while talking at the same time !! *sigh* breathhhhhhhhhh Sarah breathhhhhhhh …..

Fun day ?? ah well wasn’t fun at all. And nope no exciting individuals, same old Adrian been as quite as possibly, someone being bitchy then ever, Meliser was lost I guess haha , Vinila depressing … rest I don’t want to discuss. Just too disturbing. The face painting and ‘sponge the teachers’ went okay. By the way just for the records William can beat Kyril any day … Wooohooooo … okay not my sort of thing. I just thought of adding that as well.

I think I’m gonna have that time of the month again very soon, bloody feel like crying every now and then. {Breathhhhhhhhhhhh} Right, I’m replying to Alison’s comment on bebo , gosh like is that something to do !! So bored … why isn’t any fucktard online. I feel like doing karaoke. I’m not lame …

My texts wont even go, oh well Mehul replied saying “Low battery , cant reply” , I just had no comment. Dad got chocolate once again, they not helping me calm down either. Though I cant stop shoving my mouth with it. I have just eaten a lot today. Hate the idea of cook and clean, making me more ….more …. More… I don’t know … actually …

Well that makes the it the eighth cube of chocolate I just had. Do I sound dull. Because I’m !! .. so sick .. and … something ….

… and I’m now officially collecting money to buy myself a nikon D60 digital SLR . . its about time … cant collect money up to $1,000-$6,000 … so just gona go with … a $699 one. Speed shutter and everything … awesome ! awesome ! … hmm maybe I should get like a rich boyfriend , and slut around him to buy me one … but HA! … no thanks … I buy my own camera myself !! … check the camera I want .. here … ahh .. just check out the lens ..

http://www.cameratown.com/assets/news/large/NikonD60.jpg

Anyhow no one replying to my texts, getting annoyed now …

This weekend has been a waste, yet again !! woohoo …

I’m thinking of have a new blog site, wordpress is getting lame, nahh I joke !! … I’m just in the mood to criticize things (people) , muhaha yes evil ! .. okay that’s it from my side , no more entertainment in my life … personal life ..well never had one really .. and its kinda stuck atm too .. so yea ,… family ? .. mum is goneee to Canada … I wanna go to …….

U reckon chocolate make you cough ..

Btw I’m thinking of singing in my next blog …

Better check it out soon .. …

Enough .. ??

Let it go .

Yes! I know, I haven’t been writing latterly. And I don’t blame any ‘stress’ or event. It’s just that I’ve been lazy and … just LAZY. Actually feeling like a big fat bum!! Hmm well there has been farting break out in my house today.

I think I should now apply for uni’s. I wanna study in India but its too competitive there and I don’t think I got any bone in my body that wants a fight. So yea basically life sucks , I got like 2 pages full of questions to answer for my business and management class which is due as soon as we go to school after like a week. Seriously speaking I can’t believe I have successfully wasted my one whole week.

I need to do a lot of things my art exhibition, TOK presentation and essay, BAM, maths project and others are too depressing to even think about it. Oh and not forgetting studying for mocks exam!!!

My art teacher once called me a “procrastinator.” Does u think I’m one?

I really don’t know, maybe I’m but yea whatever, I’m so not in the mood to care.

I just wanna fall asleep and never wake up .

So sorry you ugly people out there, my posts have been really pointless but just yea , u know . . . . I’m just gonna slowly let it go..

Restless .

I’m so restless! I can’t sleep, its like I’m waiting for something to happen. I just don’t know what. Something is not right, I think I haven’t done anything. I’m not going to school tomorrow since I got no papers to write thought I feel nervous. I have this fear of losing something. And just because of all this I’m awake at 2.28am. Well I went into bed already but then I got out of it because something felt missing and I don’t know what. Maybe after I write this blog I will then find peace and I don’t exactly know how but I just might. I have no sleep in my eyes. Oh well, I v-mailed everybody in class saying best of luck for their exams but no one replied so I’m guessing either no one got it or their fingers have grown so big that they cant text me back. Anyways its okay, I’m just too cool for you guys. Therefore I can purely understand.

How has life been?

Beyond any doubt speaking it’s NOT good. It’s really been a nightmare. No ones being of any help and I have recently mastered an attitude something like “so what? I don’t care!” and seriously that is just not a good thing. And when you have that sort of attitude, you just know that its time to fall backwards and hit your head on the ground and most probably die! Oh! Just great . see . . . I even know how I’m gonna end up. Gosh , I’m really mean.

I guess one of the reason that is making me be an absolute bum is offcourse the general reason that some of you might be knowing and its not gooa to mention here , but yea that reason and the other reason is school. It just so wrong and not cool , I HATE BAM … for the 100^th time , alrite . but I gotta deal with this sorta things …stress stress stress …die !

Hmm just got a pop up email by BBC saying “Army chief General Michel Suleiman is elected by parliament as Lebanon’s president, ending a six-month stand-off which threatened civil war.” Well dunno what’s happening in that part of the world, sounds serious! (And no it’s not lame to sign up for an email for an hourly update of the world. Its very educational, if u tards didn’t know. Hahah

Okay I think, I’m in my good mood now …

Just a song , that’s makes me wonder so bad . . . it’s one of the classic’s …

Maine kisi ko dil deke kar li

Raatein kharaab dekho

Aaya nahin abhi tak udhar se. . x

Koi jawaab dekho

…~Woh na kahenge to khudkashi

Bhi kar jaaoonga main yaaron

~….Woh haan kahenge to bhi khushi se

Mar jaaonga main yaaron. . .

Love always 

Sarah.

B o o !

smile smile . . . long time since i gave u guys a big bright smile !!  i knw !  i’ve been really busy u know (flips her hair back)   . Weeeeeeeell i wish i could say that , its more like , i’ve been lazy , really lazy . I didn’t go to school just for the record , mum has been away for quite sometime now , thou she coming back today, i think her absence has kept me pretty busy with washing my own clothes , cleaning my room, help cook sister, do the dishes, house work oh and shopping too ! washing my own school uniform every afternoon is not funny , and catching the school bus at 7.10 every morning is just not funny either , and finishing your homework at 2 in the morning and going to bed at that time and having a 4 hour sleep is just not on ! its depressing me , and plus nothing is HAPPENING in my social life !! what is wrong with the universe , wasn’t it supposed to give me the things i imagined  i already had , dude i tell you  , i hav imagined a million things by yesterday nite and still haven’t got any of it as yet, so i have decided to stop doing that . god bless me now .

I’m sure people reading really wouldn’t wanna knw abt school , but hey thats what i’ve been doin so u better hear it , he-he!  hmm extended essay 4,000 words , well they are expecting me to write it , okay , i’m trying , i’m writing abt M.F.Hussain , and apparently his been let go and stuff ! kinda puts my essay in the bin, but hey !! who care !

Group 4 project (science) thank god i do ,only one of the science which is physics its awesome , but i seriously dont wanna writing abt density of mangrove seed bro !

English is going good , i dnt like poems that much , sometimes it just touches my heart and sometimes it just misses my whole body and hence i dont get any of it ,, ,hahah

Art .OMG !  its a night mare , its supposed to be one of my fav subjects but right now, it sucks ..

French ?? ah i dont think we even wanna talk abt it ,

oh oh MATHS ! is awesome , i dont love it ! but its good .

TOK is bad .

i think my fingers have become lazy nw , i can hardly lift them now .

bye now .

*yawns*

LOVE ??

Okay. I have been inspired lately AGAIN, err i guess , by someone , hmm ,who ? , i dont know . . .  And i think I’m getting to my goals pretty fast by having this person as my inspiration.

I was just listening to a few old songs which i had from primary school . Who knows the song ‘Dil he dil main’ in the movie Dum?? , No! and its not dumb , i used to like love it , and i used to know the lyrics of it by heart … and today when i was listening to it , after five years i still knew the song , and it made me happy all over again.

I’m totally loving the idea of being a teenager and a umm girl . haha what ?? i know , i don’t know either . Some things just make me fee good about myself.

i’m even loving fucktards right now.

Lifes great.

12.14am BAM report yet to be finished !!

<sigh>

I just cant pay attention while writing my BAM report, something is up and i dont exactlly know what . But still can feeeel it ! The super natural power . ta-na-ta-na-ta-na … puppy powerrrrrrr !! haha how i sometimes remember the good old days watching cartoon network with my brother. And you guys check out my memory skill aye … i actually remember some of the characters dialogs in each cartoon. Anyhow , i find it mroe interesting to ‘discess about cartoons then stupid business report, I just dont like the subject  .And i knw i’m gonna sound lame but , that subject is not mee ! … it has nothing to do with me .. and me interests .. i thinks its taking me a step back from doing BA in Journalism … i dont have a valid reason why . but i just like to blame this subject alone.

I think i’m depressed . NO! actaully I’M DEPRESSED ! i have soo many things to do yet i feel so lazy. I dont know what my problem is but i always end up pushing things to the last minute . Like , as if i was a supergurl and can do things JSUT LIKE THAT !

BTW do u hav some people in life ur which just make things harder for you , like some people are doing to ME !! yes ! u guys are doing it to me … STOP! IT … coz u people are the ones creating the stressful environment around me and therefore i cant send any of my positive vibes to the universe and tell the universe what i want .. where .. why and when ?? .. confused what i’m talking about .. dont tell me ..that  u havent watched “THE SECRET” .. if u havent go watch it . freaking made my life easier but some people have so much a of evil power that it blocks all my positive energy and makes me want to stand there and sayy all the swears i know throughout my 17 years of life !

School is just killing .. french is making me worried …

and i think i should so now ,, and before i go ,  i got lil thing here …. its a little sentenc, saying something i would like to tell a certain person .. haha  its not that personal

“je l’aime jusqu’à mon dernier souffle mais il ne sait pas! “

And ofcourse … i LOVE shyam !

DO YOU lOVE SOMEONE THIS MUCH?

OKAY ! ..have you ever got emails along this cliché lines ..

A girl and guy were speeding over 100 kmph on the road on a motorcycle…

Girl: Slow down. Im scared.

Guy: No this is fun.

Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary

Guy: Then tell me you love me.

Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!

Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.

Girl hugs him

Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.

In the paper the next day A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure.

Two people were on it, but only one had survived.

The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn’t want to let the girl know.

Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug him one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

 

 

If there is anyone in life you love this much, please send this. Forward this to all your good friends on-line to show them that you care.

NOW, make a wish about something you would like to happen with you and someone whom you REALLY care about……….
OK, now if you send this to..

1 person~ your wish will come true in 6-8 months

3 people~ your wish will come true in 4-6 months

 5people~ your wish will come true in 1-2 months

7 people~ your wish will come true in 2 weeks

10 people~ your wish will come true in three days

14 people~ your wish will come true in the next 24 hours!

BUT…… If you do not send this to any one, you will have bad luck!!!!

 Let me tell u , that its totally corny and emotionally blackmails you … serious !!

Get over it as soon as possible …. or else it could killllll u … by making u feel sorry for the girl …or if u didnt forward it .. its gonna make u guilty

blah blah blah … and the blah’s

Well , we all sometimes feel really low and sometimes really really GOOD about ourselfs. And right now i’m feeling really gud about myself , my depression has been peeled off me just like you would peel a carrot It feels nice to actaully feel good about my OWNself, i reckon its the new song of Atif Aslam that is making me fall in love with that certain person more then ever.And the thoughts of him is making me smile and everything is just so postive around me . . . Yep! even the people i hate are just the most beautiful peole in the world [ right now].

Falling in love is very corny nowdays , people have ‘over used’ the word ‘i love you’ ..and etc etc … so much that now when it actaully seems true .. somewhere at the back of ur head its kinda holding you back telling you that LOVE? .. love is just a lame word .. its doesnt mean anything , maybe the point i’m trying to get at is not very clear .. coz i think i’m still a bit confused about all this stuff. I’ve never been a situtaion where someone is in love or rather someone is in love with me .. i;ve always know people .. who have always had the ‘one sided love’. ..

< still listening to atif , cant get over her new song, making me just soo happy and something .. i dont know , haha .. but its feels loved? yes , i knw .. this song is just making me use the word LVOE too bloody much .. just listenign to this song , u’ll know what i mean

just feel like doing that dance thing .. .. hehehehe … yea … JUST THAT dancing thing .

Today went pretyy good .. todays activties included .

-sweeping the house
-mopping it
- washing the outside passage [ u guys ever cleaned frog shittt ! ,..well i did today.. not only one but heaps]
-went to the doctor [ finally had to do something abt my cough ]
-went to see the new buliding with shyam [ which was our old house]
-went to get dvds
-shyam buys nusrt fateh ali khan CD’s [ we listen to afreen afreen in the car][ we hate it ]
-went to resturant 88 to have lunch [ the lady there decides to give us free ice-cream soup thing]
-came home
-washed my clothes
-washed my uniform [ not in the washing machine ..yes thats work]
-watched Sa Re Ga Ma Pa [ hated it ]
-hepled shyam cook [ HATED THAT TOO ]
-now on the computer

< let me play that song again .. coz i think i’m getting depressed again ]

*sigh*

lovies
sarah

xox

.. oh oh .. just to add the last bits … u knw that guy shyam from school ! ..dat guy has finally got some sense into his brain .. he has actaully learnt hw to talk ! .. god bless and he made it to uni .. if shyam can .. so can i ! .. .. haha woohoo ..i’m actulyl hungry

and umm ..i’m going to do my BAM homework .. fucking two reports to write .. thats really not cool but .. i think i’m doing it slowly ..

… i HATE BAM I JUST HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IT ! … FUCKING RETARDNESS I TELL U …

AND I STILL GOT ART TO DO .. SINCE I’M STARTING MY FIRST PIECE TOMORROW .. WOOHOO … WELL HOPEFULLY …

i totally feel like the below people ..

Depressed Sunday !

I think for me leaving behind my 17’s moments , lifestyle and moving on to be finally 18 which is an every kids dream ! And to be 18 . . . for me its not settling in well , every things new around me ! I even hate it so much that at times it makes me cry till i fall asleep on my own lonely bed.I think this is one of the things that depresses me more then school !.. YES! did I mention school is getting to me , soon i’d be in to pieces! And the other things that depresses me is .. being alone on freaking Valentines Day ! So many years have passed and i’m still standing at the same spot … looking around as if i was what .. some abnormal gurl , while my friends walked with thier other halfs, thou its cool , i dont care … but some how it always ,managers to depress me even more, So u know how fucked // depressing // it is ! Everybody dreams of being in love with a guy or gurl , and meaning the world to him or her .Moving on to FAT People . . now tell me , What exactlly is wrong with fat girls , huh? Tell me .. at least they are bigger then the skinny sluts some guys liek to work around. I mean c’mon a fat girl can do everything the skinny one cant , I’ll give u an example , a fat girl can get ur through a crowd , a fat girl can provide more love to you aimless guys coz we are bigger and better so ..hence we will have more love , logical? Okay ! u may think skinny girls are good to have sex with , but babe , u havent been out with fat gurl , and you dont exactlly know , how it feels ..alright .. okay ! this is very ahem .. but .. u see my issues with skinny girls!And even thats not enough .. fat girls can even fight for you .. yep ! JUST FOR YOU … this is just regarding ME ! .. coz i dont think there is any other fat girl like me ! .. . yes ! i like to feel good about my self.people think being fat is abnormal , like u go burry urself in the ground ! Its just as normal as an apple tree give apples ..?? ahah

depresses me alot .Besides that , i miss my mum , when is she coming back !!!! shyam is pissed of at me , coz i said something really mean to her , dad is doing his usual sunday stuff ! .. I’m even more depressed, Coz i;m just sitting on this computer and writing a blog that doesnt even make sense . help me lord ! aww .. woudlnt it have been better if i said yes to a proposal to go to a beach , its not what it sounds like …okay i’m getting even more depressed ..♥

. . . the worries ??? Al-Qaeda?? WHAT ?? bahah NOT!

Woohaa ! After a veryyyy long time i got my bum back on this thing okay ..its just been a month but isnt it seems ages! Yea whatever just be with me …, Well the new year is doing its job … already started to get rid of the months as fast as possible. Jan’s gone , time for some feburuay ..spread some love people.And since i havent written any ‘teenage blogs’ and not so deep enough like someone says, I’m just gonna keep writing frm the above layer of my heart , NOW that is very near to my heart.

Have i ever told you that, i’m the biggest FAN of Mr.Russell Peters. YES! u better take that name with respect, coz we’re talking about Sarah Narayan’s idol here). Anyways today was SATURDAY ! yaya .. ‘go to town day’ , For me and mum ofcourse. And you know what?? my mum loves the supermarket! She wonders off as if it was dream land, haha but shes cool!Once again IRB sevens has ben kicked off this year and apparently New Zealand is leading by winning the cup in its own ground ! Absoulte retartds!! Hate people from NZ .. I’m serious … they all act like ‘we know it all’ but the fact remains that you dont knwo anything! So just take you wannaB overseas crew OFF Fiji Islands !! U dont belong here. [ Cureent mood : patriotic] And this goes out to all you rugby players who were born in Fiji, peed in Fiji , Vomitted in Fiji, Slept in Fiji, ate our fucking root crops and then you want to take you skinny/black asses to NeW zEaLaNdDdD and play for them and have the guts to think its freaking cool , just for a few extra dollars. Buddy seriously i got nothing to say to you .. you can go and kiss the whites assess all your life, get all the money and which wouldnt even buy you a respected life , coz after u people ditched us ..THE ISLANDERS … u aint getting anything frm us anymore ! … but u knw , Fiji Islands has become such a fat lazy bum that we will all welcome that same stupid player with open arms and legs, spread flowers for him to work on .. just becasue he came back to Fiji to get married to a nice girl !! You just go and find a nice gurl in Nz .. retard! I hate it .. i cant believe we lost today !! Okay you know i dont blame the player , i might levae my country for some other just to make money . NOW thats something all indians like to do .. go to America and earn money , i have a few chatting mates , who just come from india , and they are like … i want to have lots of money … i want to go to America .. i just hate America .. first they sell gun’s to alllllllllllll the other countires in the world … and then afterwards wants to come and decline war on that country .. America cant fight with its stardand of people , it bullies countries and people. Hell serious ! Isn’t it about time we told busy to be open minded and not only give speechs about being a free country … coz buddy somewhere along the line we know that you a are part of the al qaeda gang !! Thats a secret you all sound keep , we need to seriously tell tat man , it time u changed ur 18th century thoguhts or u let other people in this world , who surely can run America wayy better then you..So go home and thinks abotu urself .

The below picture has missed bush in it … So i will include him there, IT WILL GIVE ME PEACE , Dont be stupid , and

let let him fool you dumb America’s ..open ur eyes and see the light …

After a lil decsion about Al-Qaeda , now i;m going to about about my school ! And after looking at the pic , bush is going to kill …ahah like i knw him personally?? .. .. and ofcourse al-Qadea is going to kill me too as i have included a retarded in their team ! .. ahaha…hmm ahh well .. the School was supposed to start from last week Monday but it didnt coz we were being hit a cyclone and floods , thank god it didnt reach us , and to the people it didt reach , dotn worries , you guys will have more bad times and trust me you will have the most happier time then the sad as well … Do u know how annoying it is to listen to all my subject teachers all day long, and they just keep talking and talking and talking .. like shut the fuck up man !! like ur ear drums will blow into pieces. But teachers are always there to educate us , and u knw .. i woudlnt have been able to write this blog today .. if it was for those boring teachers! God! i’m just confused , i dont know what to do .. whether to bitch about the teachers or to be very kind towards them …. awwff !! never mind …I’m listening … to Kelly clarkson at the moment ,… singing Beautiful Disaster .. yep ! and the only person i can call .. “…but his soo beautiful..” is .. ofcourse one and only Kunal Kapoor, now he can never compeat with me in my looks but I still will give him a chance .. ahaha … … And .. one more thing u will need to know is that if u have a something personal to keep and wanna tell someone then i suggest you dont tell shyam or suraj . Coz they just cant keep it in their bellys ! fucking serious.*sigh* school starts on monday ..and i still have to do a few things, This last year of high is going to be a tough one , being the deputy head girl and trying to do everything at my dead level best , coz then i can get to uni. i dont know how far i’m gonna be able to do this but i hope i can.sarah
xox

going to bed not depressed tonite …. ♥